My kids are growing faster than the speed of light.
So much has happened during this past month-ish that it is hard to keep track. A is quickly wrapping up third grade…THIRD GRADE!!! Didn’t she just learn to walk? How is this even possible?
Lots has happened over these fleeting weeks. J’s vocabulary is out of control. Sometimes I can’t help but laugh at all of the things that come from this tiny person. He has said everything from “uh oh, spaghettio” to “no way Jose!,” but my favorite is “I love you Mama.”
In April, we went on vacation!! We traveled down to Savannah, Georgia to visit Husband’s Dad and step-mom. I won’t lie, I was super nervous about flying with J. I wasn’t sure how he would do with his ears, etc. But he was AMAZING. I mean…I have a super awesome kid. He was a PRO.
Vacation was so much fun! We spent lots of quality time at the pool, eating at awesome restaurants, exploring the city, and J had his first experience with the beach, ocean and toes in the sand. I absolutely loved it there. I was extremely relaxed, at peace, and WARM. Oh, the sun and to be warm!
Other big news: we are quickly approaching one week of J being in his big boy bed. No more cribs for this little mister. Although he is not quite two, we figured it was time to graduate to a bed. He was bouncing in his crib to the point I was worried he would launch himself over…and able to scale the outside of the crib. Not good.
This is all just so amazing but I am not going to lie…these past few months have been treacherous. The winter was long, hard, cold and miserable. Spring has been equally nasty. I am tired of it. I need sunshine and giggles and warmth. Yes, my house has been full of love and laughter thanks to my beautiful children and wonderful Husband. But I’m sad to admit out loud that it just hasn’t been enough. Is it too much to ask to not have stresses? Stress about money. Stress about work. Stress about putting yet MORE oil in the furnace because our state just won’t cut us a break and warm up! It’s really been eating at me…I just feel like something is missing but I can’t quite figure out what that is.
So, I’ve decided to change my perspective. It’s a daily awareness of focusing on all of the good and not worrying about all of the other stuff. I can’t control the weather or some of our financial woes. But I can control my attitude about it and trying to stay upbeat and positive. My family deserves nothing but the best version of me. Hell, I deserve to be the best version of me. That’s what I’m choosing to do. So, I want more giggles, more hugs, more “I love yous,” more dance parties, more adventures, more messes, and more time. Life is moving too fast and I choose to suck up every moment of it.