I’ve had an epiphany. It’s funny how having a baby changes someone. Yes, it changes your
life drastically in the more obvious areas: if you had a very active “going out” life, once baby comes…that changes. Your financials change.
I have changed.
Pre-baby, I was really focused on my job. I had a great job pre-baby..I loved my job. But even before he was born, I was looking for a change. I was ready for a challenge. I accepted a new job after maternity leave with a completely new company outside of my comfort zone. I wanted that challenge. What I didn’t realize at the time was that what I really wanted was to be with J.
6-months later and as of Monday afternoon…I am unemployed. The job was not the right fit for me. I have been looking for the past three-ish weeks for something else. My epiphany has been that if I have to be away from my son, I need to be doing something I love. And, I was not happy…and they were not getting out of my performance what they thought they would be. Yes, I would have preferred to have another job lined up before having left that company, but it just wasn’t the way it happened.
So, now I’m on the hunt. I’m looking for something that will make me excited to go to work. I am looking for a job with a purpose. Or, maybe something I can do from home so that Mr. Man isn’t in daycare as much. Hell, I would work anywhere that would allow me the flexibility to be with my son more. He is already 10-months old (well, he will be on Saturday) and I am missing out on so much of it.
Until I find my new “thing” I am enjoying the sunshine and time with my son. Plus I get to do those projects around the house that have been neglected due to time…Oh, and naps. I’m going to try to catch up on some zzzzz’s.
Damn babies. They change you…but I must say that I feel I’m a better person because of him and have finally found true and complete happiness. He helps complete our family. Husband and I have two awesome kids and I want to be there to watch them grow.
I can tell you…that right now…in this moment, even though I am unemployed…I am the happiest I’ve been in a long time.